The best thing that happened to me in dunman high was joining SJAB and knowing this whole bunch of people whom i call squadmates! Honestly, for now the only people i will gladly give up my life for are my squadmates who have lasted for 4 years and counting.

it was in mid april 2008, when i really had a good look at her.

A few months back, i remember, during orientation, we were supposed to sit in a circle and she was, well, part of my group. At first glance i didnt think much about it, one of those forgettable sea of faces i would see in the entire course of my life.

i did not know what happened, the events leading up to april. maybe it was just a hormone reaction or love at first sight or those intrapersonal attraction that attracted me to her. It was a little weird. I remembered asking terence if that was her name and 'yea' he said. Thats when it all started. i remember fondly and stupidly asking for her number over msn which was pretty dumb and uncool. well, she gave it and then i remember a few messages which we talked about was about asking her to run fast because her house was far away from the train station. one was also about the numerous pets she owned like 35 dogs, 27 cats, 29 birds or so. i stupidly, naively but gladly believed in. those were great times, i remember walking home with winky one day and winky, who was rather close to her, told me that actually she told winky that she felt the same way about me. i was overjoyed but in the end she stopped because i was flirty or to put it in a nicer way i was very close to some girls from my class because i find it easier to talk to girls, until now, i still do regret it.

Year 2 was well i would say a blast. i wanted to get into the same class as her for year 3 but i couldn't because my grades sucked. i was rather annoying, keep trying to make conversation with her, i was like a fly 24/7 bloody fucking annoying as i realised two years on. But i had to admit, talking to her was like total bliss, it keeps burning like a fire, the moments with her, i dont think it will ever ever extinguish.

all in all i confessed to her 3 times i guess, once every year except for year one. pretty messed up, me. i remember feeling quite broken from her response in year 2.

in year 3, things changed. i was caught up with a new class, new friends, and more sjab projects, instructorhood, jnco planning. i did not talk to her that often and well, it sucked pretty bad. i did not have time for that.

sometimes when i talk to her, i guess teasing her makes it interesting. she is really really good-natured, and has the heart of a saint. she learns sign language, plans volunteer camps. i think that really makes it brilliant. what im feeling now is like a feeling of soreness and heavy heartedness, its like a burning fire. she is really wonderful. my friends well they think its quite admirable that i am still here waiting for her, after almost 4 years. it is worth the wait.

Fast forward to year 4 and present, i feel even more determined, never ever gonna stop. for this year, i talked to her more often and well i guess something magical happened. i wouldnt say it was all magical, but it felt like it. i cant remember much but of what i remember, i told her i like her alot and well she asked me how long was i willing to wait. i said forever, even if it was a lifetime. talking to her makes me feel like im in bliss, always happy. she is a beautiful girl, inside out.

sometime it gets boring or she gets pissed with me. which is what is happening now. i feel gutted, like my heart is being pulled out. mostly its all my fault, for being the unfeeling insensitive bastard that i am.

but to be honest, sometimes i really do not understand her. maybe she is a little busy or i am being a total asshole who does not deserve her.

no matter what, i will always have that little torch for her, even if at times i get distracted from other girls. this only occured to me this year. well, better late then never.

i want to sail the ocean blue, trek the mountain high. fly the crystal clear sky and walk the million mile roads with her for the rest of my life.

it takes time, but i hope and i want and i will get there.

maybe in a few years, i may come back and take a look at this and find it corny. if you are looking at this, the FUTURE RYAN, think of all the couples out there, who have spent almost the whole lives with each other.

maybe at times they may have disagreements, but deep, deep, deep, down they know its part of being in love, that makes it stronger. and that is the beautiful thing about love and life. i doubt if any of their spouses did that, they wont find it corny, because they are just madly in love with each other.

Just like how i see my parents, my father does not show his emotions out well, but i just know he loves her. Maybe not all couples show how they are madly in love with each other even though the average person might think, how did they even get together in the first place. there is always something couples love about each other, its just that most people cannot see that with the other people.

i hope that when i see this in the future, i am happy with what i have in life, with the person i am talking about.

Closure, Capturing

HELLO, I'M HERE TO ANNOUNCE THAT I BOUGHT A NEW HOT SMEXY ENGERIE BAG :D

Zomgzxzx, and LSD cards are so cool, like cucumbers.

Well, headed to Robinsons @ city hall yesterday and I went to the shoe section to sit down because I was fishing tired. Then there was this old, snob hag plonk down on the seat next to me. I almost died, I literally FLEW up :D

She was talking to her friend and said that she was heading to Toronto, Quebec (?) and yadayadam Both of them talked like some filthy, filthy, dirty rich tai-tais and they seem to be mocking @ the sales girl at the shoe section. If i were the salesgirl, I would give them one tight slap, or make it a dozen.

IF they were that rich, would they be buying cheapskate shoes with unknown brands? Haha no, they should be purchasing Jimmychoos and MaryJanes whathaveyounots. Yada yada. Stupid motherfishing birdbrains .

okay, I have Physics test tmr and Geog Elect FULL paper the following day. OMG, school is torturous. I haven't started on Physics yet.

Bless me lord:D


OH ya, I'm not ryan hahahahahahahaha.
i'm such a great, awesome and wonderful girl, by helping him to update although I have my own livej :L kk, tata, be back in a few weeks time :D


will urge Ryan to blog!! :B

Fake Tales of San Francisco

Hola! I’m Carla Moronica Kensojitoro Popplito. You don’t know me, neither do I even know you. So in simple words, we’re strangers. And NO, I’m not Ryan (Ew, who wants to be him). So, this blog has been dead for at least 2 times. HENCE, me being a nice,kind,loving,awesome,brilliant,smart,wonderful and hot Samaritan shall bring this blog to life like EVANESCENCE.

I PROMISE, I PROMISE to make this post an interesting and entertaining one, I PROMISE. So keep your eyes WIDE OPEN. If at any point of time you feel restless or my post is so full of bullshit and crap, SCRAM, tyvm. :D

And parents out there, don’t you worry, this post is totally PG. No profanities will be hurled or warped ideas inserted into the bird brains of your kids. Jk.

OKAY, so I’m gonna post 20 random facts on MOI, si si, oui. (Isn’t French a beautiful language? Or isit not French?) I know you think it’s dumb and senseless but I’ve been tagged to do so by idontknowwho lol.

HERE GOES: ( Inserts Applause)
1. I love the SKATE CO :D They are the coolest people I ever met. Ily you guys so so duperduper much! :B

2. I love to watch bimbotic shows ‘cause it’s FUNNY OKAY. (OKAY, I admitted it RACHEL, although you wouldn’t see this (: )

3. I think I’m very, very mean. I view certain blogs because I find their style and way of writing somewhat amusing in a BAD way. EH, and I’m not the only one who does that okay! DuNcH Killzxzx Miieeezx

4. I’ll never,ever be caught dead in T.F. ZOMG, fashion faux pas!

5. I think I’m a good liar, Cheryl the gullible girl falls for my tricks everytime. :D My accomplice is the Big Mouth Monster. LOL, once I told a few of my class girls that I’m Elvin Ng’s cousin and I’m Korean, and they believed (: BUT, i got exposed, and now they doubt every word I say ): Hahahaha.

6. I love fried food although I know it’s FATTENING.

7. I love to be with people who make me laugh like some nuthead, skateco. :D

8. I’m easily paranoid, really.

9. I don’t go MSN because whenever I’m in it, disaster strikes, literally.

10. I think hard boiled eggs smell nicer than half boiled eggs.

11. I’ve never seen Zee fall during skating but I’ve seen M fall a couple of times :D

12. I think my sense of fashion for now is kinda boy-ish. Flip flops, canvas H.V, Skinnies. I’m over shorts for now :)

13. I think this world is moron-roamed.

14. I love to watch kid shows although I’m like too old for them (:

15. I love to go Sentosa although there’s nothing much to do there. Okay, actually my main objective of going there is to get sun kissed BUT, the sun tanning lotion/oil is always not that strong enough. Our skin tone is always the same.

16. I think my friends and I can be spies. Why? Once, we ordered Macs @ 3am in the morning and we had to plan routes to collect the food so as to prevent getting caught by teachers. Mind you, they weren’t asleep yet! We nearly died, cheapthrills I say :D Guess where we ate? In the toilet, in the toilet, it stank so bad. Okay, I think this does’t relate quite well to SPIES. BUT, you got the brief idea right, buddy?

17. I once served a ball at sentosa and it hit one old man’s head HARD and I ran away. But I apologized later and gave him the ball lol. (Cuz he had a grandchild with him) Okay, I’m a coward. :l but at least I apologized (:

18. I have thunder thighs.

19. I committed a felony when I was very very young.

20. Last but not least, I wanna go on an expedition with ZAC SUNDERLAND although he has already left.

THE END. (inserts applause)
Okay, I feel kinda tired after writing all these. So long, peace out.
Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo,Ciao!

Hey Ho!

Hey Ho to all!
This blog is so dead. I might get a coffin for it. And for you guys information, this isn't Ryan. I love gossip girls. Especially Nate Archibald ;D Scream your hearts out girls.
Alright, these are just random rants.

You know you love me
xoxo,
Gossip Girl

I HACKED.

I'm not Ryan. For the curious souls out there, you might be wondering who am i. I'm BUBBLES! The new costume Designer! Has anyone seen RYAN? Nah, jokes aside.
It's a boring affair in here, and i'm being kind by reviving the blog. I just did CPR.

If anyone of you guys happen to hop into this blog, leave a tag at least.
Please.


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Yours Sincerely,
Bonnie&Clyde.

Games

HI!I just bought a Ps2!There are many games for example Fifa 08 and winning Eleven and need for speed carbon.Those are extremely fun games which I longed to have.Especially Fifa o8 I coach Manchester united . There is a inter class sports competition and I am so very excited about it . I will be joining street soccer with some of my good friends.Halo 3 came out but it is only suitable for xbox360 which i do not have.There is also a graduation day which my class willbe performing and also a dance day.
I will be leaving primary school and i will miss all of my friends.T.T
But anyway,my favourite team, Manchester United truimphed Boro 4 to1 .Nani , Rooney and Tevez scored.Tevez scored 2 goals while the rest scored a goal each.